If you ever read this...

"Trouble words of a troubled mind, I try to understand what is eating you"

"I get on the train and I just stand about now that I don't think of you, I keep falling over I keep passing out when I see a face like you, What am I coming to? I'm gonna melt down"

I wish I was bulletproof to you. Thinking about you kills me. Thinking that we shared this album kills me. Thinking that you actually cared for me all along and I hadn't known kills me. Knowing that you won't talk to me kills me even more. What had I done to make you want to avoid me so badly? what have we come to? Why can't you just speak to me?

"This machine will, will not communicate,
These thoughts and the strain I am under,
Be a world child, form a circle,
Before we all go under,
And fade out again and fade out again"

I guess that's you. The machine.

Don't forget the last lines...

"Immerse your soul in love
IMMERSE YOUR SOUL IN LOVE"

You gave it up. You sacrificed my love for you. why?
In this world of nothing, You couldn't have kept the love that I felt for you?
The only thing that is really true? What do we all fight for? What keeps us moving?
What is the fire behind the engine that all continue on? Love.
I wish you hadn't given up and destroyed me, and you.

"If I could be who you wanted, If I could be who you wanted all the time"

Maybe I wasn't perfect, Maybe I couldn't read your mind. You weren't perfect either, but you dwelled on that much too often. You lost hope in us, in me, in love all together and I haven't. I would have sacrificed everything for you, but you thought I was delusional for loving you. You surrendered when I was willing to fight every obstacle for us. You wouldn't let me. You didn't believe in me. Even before our relationship ever started I wrote on my book, where you could clearly see it, "Don't give up on me and I won't give up on you", and what did you do? You gave up. You damn bastard.

"Where do we go from here?, The words are coming out all weird, Where are you now when I need you?"

This one doesn't need to be explained.

"You do it to yourself, you do
And that's what really hurts
Is that you do it to yourself
Just you, you and no one else
You do it to yourself
You do it to yourself"

You know I loved you. You know I cared about you. You know I'd be there for you whenever you needed me. You know you were everything to me. You knew I'd do anything for you....So you cut me loose and now you're upset? ahhhhh!!!! Mindfuk!!! >_<

Hate to be redundant but....

I loved you, I really loved you, I still love you. You obviously are feeling the sting as well, which means you're not completely emotionless. You were in this too. I lied when I said I'm happy. I was happy when I was with you, and now it's gone...because you chose to give up. I'd like to be angry at you, but I'm more disappointed than angry.