He answered.

He answered to my email in a text. My long and thought out email was answered in just 10 words: "I saw it. I'm still sticking with my decision." I asked to expand on that and he wouldn't. I guess that's it. There's nothing else I can do. I'm going to take some time off for myself, maybe a week or two...maybe up to a month. I'll keep updating because I'm going to be thinking a lot during this time off. Chuck isn't happy about it, but then again, I can't be happy with him while knowing that I'm in love with someone else. It isn't fair to him, It isn't right. I told him this and he doesn't want me to leave. I have to though. I have to do it for him and myself.
Yester-night was a good night. I didn't have a dream about Steve, I thought about him once or twice...but I didn't have a gut wrenching dream about him. That was a good start to the day. Usually I wake up from dreams of him and I when we were back together and it always hurts so badly. It ruins the rest of my day, where the only thing I can do is mope, and cry, and think about him. Today might be a good day. I might be able to think about something else for a change.
Fact is, he is being kind of selfish. He knows I'm going through a lot, and even if he's going through a lot as well, shouldn't he be concerned about me like I am about him? It doesn't seem like he is. He's just too absorbed in his own misery. Idiot.
There isn't a thing I can do, and I can't keep forcing myself to wait around for him. Though, If i allow myself to, it would be until the end of the world, and that isn't fair to me. So, I'll take some time off to think about things. Hopefully I can forget about him, and hopefully I can love Chuck again. I should be more upset, but I'm not as upset as yesterday. I have to move on; There's a whole world out there for me. If Steve isn't apart of it, there's nothing I can do. I'd love to be with him again as his romantic partner, I'll even be happy as his friend. Having some sort of connection with him, at any level would make me happy at this point. He isn't talking to me. He doesn't want to. There's nothing I can do. Some time off will do me some good.
I love you ,"Steve". If you choose to lose me again, I'll just have to continue on without you. You were my everything.