I'll always remember...

I'll always remember how we use to be.
I remember early on, you'd suddenly switch pitches when you spoke to me. It was one of the signs. Geologeeee became my favorite word ever after you said it. You were so cute.
I remember our walks in the snow, and when we gave the tree a fashion sense by fitting it with some frosty buttons. I remember us sitting on the park bench holding hands and making fun of french people.
I remember how you told me your throat hurt and asked me if I had made you sick. You weren't sick, that was one of the signs, and we knew it.
I remember when we went up to the computers on the fourth floor and we googled "How to know when a guy likes you" and you showed all the signs. We laughed our asses off that day and we had so much fun. We were online for about 2 hours and it felt like the silliest and greatest 2 hours of my life.
I remember when I took the train with you and I refused to leave your side, even when I had to go. I held your hand and I put my head on your shoulder. You felt so warm, it was like you were on fire. Your skin was always cold and I asked you what it was, you told me it was one of the signs. I remember thinking back then that I'd do anything to feel that again.
I remember you walking me to my statistics class and I was so excited to be with you that I ended up not going to class anyway.
I remember that time when we ran to my statistics class holding hands. We howled in laughter because I was late.
I remember you pulling me aside so you could speak to me, I loved that, even when we were friends. I felt so close with you, I felt so connected.
I'll always remember how much I missed you when you left, and how happy I was when you came back. I'll always remember that feeling of never wanting to lose you again...and now I've lost you again.
I'll always remember that walk in the rain with you, it was pouring and we were the only ones stupid enough to walk into the park. We were drenched. I was so happy.
I'll always remember that day when I walked with you in the park and we had walked around for hours. We were tired but I was so elated to be with you. Then you said you had to leave...and I'll remember that same pain every time I saw you. I hated it when you had to leave. You made me so incredibly happy.
I remember that time when i was mad at you and I told you I didn't want to see you...I lied. I always want to see you. Anyway, You got me to give up my tough girl act after you told me you were nose bleeding. I didn't believe you at first...and then you sent me a picture of your bloody napkin and I busted out laughing. I asked you if you were OK, and you came out to see me that day. I love you.
I remember the last time we took the train together... We fell asleep on each other. I rested on your shoulder and you let your head drop every few seconds and picked it back up again. It was a real treat watching you. I'd open my eyes every 10 seconds or so to kiss you on the jaw. I don't think you noticed. I never wanted to lose that moment.
This list can go on and on and on....
You truly made me happy, and now you've let me go. I hate being without you.
I miss you. I miss us. I love you and I loved us. If there isn't anything I can do to get that back then...I'll just have to accept it.